• 13th February
    2012
  • 13

A GOOD TALK. BECAUSE I STOOD UP FOR MYSELF.

  • I am a puss when it comes to telling people things, you could shit on me & I would still be there if you needed me, this is how I roll, always have, never been different, now this has bitten me in the ass WAY too many times to count
  • I have been in crazy lady land all weekend worried because the BF wants to step things back a bit. 
  • I told him I love the time we spend, of course I don’t want to step back, but I respect his decision, that I will be here if he wants to continue the relationship but I can’t promise him forever
  • I also told him that this time is going to be good for me too, time for me to reflect & find the real Amiee, because I am in me, I need to find me. Beyond what I show, fun, bubbly, me, I am scared & nervous of what people think of me ALL THE TIME.  
  • He called me about 15 minutes ago & said “I just want to tell you, just because I need some space, doesn’t mean I don’t care, you are amazing & wonderful & I couldn’t ask for anyone better in my life, us stepping back & taking things slow is what we should have done from the beginning, but we didn’t….you saying you need to reflect means a lot, you are my best friend, you are one of the only people out here that I consider a friend.  I want to hang out & go hiking & go to dinner, but we both need time, We will be ok, I promise” 

I am not holding my breath, but I feel so much better.  

  1. iaintsuperman said: Bullet number 5 means something amiee! :) it means he doesn’t want it to burn out. Xo
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